I can't believe it's already Thursday (night). This week escaped me. Work is keeping me hella busy and it's been nonstop. I find myself working a little in the morning when Dex will let me. I have 3 computers I work from. One at my desk in our makeshift home office, a laptop, and our "TV" / iMac. I can't really sit at my desk with Dex on my lap because he grabs whatever is on the desk in front of him and pulls it off onto the floor. Instead, I check my email on my handy iPhone and do phone calls. I have a laptop if I absolutely need to write an email, but the iMac is also set up so that I can log in and have all my email, iChat, bookmarks handy. I'm such a geek… an Apple geek at that.
I'm not sure if Dex is doing anything new. It's kind of all blending together. He's still working on getting coordinated enough to crawl. He gets his legs under him and his butt in the air, but he puts his face on the floor instead of his hands. It's kinda funny. He gets a good inchworm going, but he's sliding on his face which can't be too pleasant.
He's experimenting with syllables. I heard him say "ma ma", but he was just making the sounds. I wasn't even in the room at the time. Pretty cool though. It's crazy to think he's going to talk!
Dexter's separation anxiety is starting to be really apparent. If he sees me leave through the front door, his eyes get really big and he lets out a good wail. I'm not sure if it's better that I'm at home or worse because he sees me come and go a lot. He gets upset even if I leave the room sometimes. I find myself sneaking away now, so he doesn't see me leave. Secretly, it's awesome for him to want me to stick around. I joke with Mike that he just likes the one with the boobs.
The funniest thing this week was that he kissed the sitter. Apparently, he puckered up and gave her a peck on the cheek. Sweet little booger getting fresh with the babysitter! I'm a little jealous because he hasn't kissed me yet, but then again he doesn't cry when she leaves (yet)!
Having a kid has been quite the experience. There are a lot of ups and downs. It's been hard on me and my husband's relationship. It's such a roller-coaster. Most of the time it's great, but the dips are bad. Arguing at 2 am because the baby won't sleep is no fun, but I'm sure it happens to all new parents. There's a lot of role shifting, stress and identity crises. I understand why so many people get divorced in the first 3 years. I think we are doing very well. I mean we own a company together and that's on top of the marital stress! Our relationship will never be the same as it was before, but we appreciate each other so much more. Our third wheel will be around for quite a while!
As for Dexter, just seeing complete adoration in his eyes is so extraordinary. He's so happy all the time. It makes me happy to watch him wake up and smile when he sees me. I like to make him laugh and I don't care how silly I look doing it. He is such a treasure. I can't even put into words what it's like to love someone so intensely and then to bring this little being into this world that is a perfect union of that love. It's just something that takes my breath away thinking about it.
